Friday, March 28, 2008
My family history is nasty when it comes to Cancer. I have recently lost an Uncle (my dad's twin) and Brittney a very young cousin (16) to it. I also I have had two aunts a grandmother 2 young (25) and (26) year old cousins and my dad who have had various types and stages of the beast. Not to mention the not so few friends or their family members who have either had it are going through it now. I seem to remember a time when Cancer was something people just talked about or you read about in an article in a magazine. Now though it feels like if you personally have not been touched by it then someone close to you has. I think I personally have become sort of desensitized because of how "normal" this disease is becoming. I think this is both a blessing and a curse. I know really. How could I think of that attitude as a blessing? I guess coming from a family with a history like mine I have to be aware and prepared that at least one of my siblings or me will most likely get it. In fact my doctor just recently told me I should go to a genetic counselor and get the tests run and just "take the hit" for my sister's and that way only one of has to pay the bill. My first thought was, "good idea doc." Really why shouldn't I go and get it over with? I have to start getting mammograms at 30 anyhow what’s a few months early? I feel like no matter how "normal" this is in my family it is still devastating and life altering. I also feel like having been so closely touched by it I get a little better at processing it every time the news hits. Is this a good thing? I'm not sure. I just know its how it is for me. As far as the curse part goes, I think I in turn am touched so deeply each time I hear the news whether it's someone I know personally of not because I know what road they are headed down. Each walk down this path is very personal and unique but they have some very consistent elements that make them very much the same as well. I don't know. In the end I just needed to vent about how unfair life is and at the same time what a blessing and gift it is as well. I keep thinking of the saying, “He never said it would be easy just worth it.”
I want to ask all of you to remember in your prayers those wonderful people whose paths you will directly walk in and those you will just hear of by chance who are walking with the burden of sickness at their sides. I know I will be.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Finally... Here it is the footage we’ve all been waiting for! Baby Masch #4 seems to be loving life in the womb. He is showing remarkable skill in the facial expression department. He is all smiles even in his cramped quarters. There seems to be an uncanny resemblance to his three older siblings. It seems we are very happy with our previous models so we just keep making em' from the same mold. We hope you enjoy his movie making debut as much as we have.(make sure to pause music before playing video)
Life's a party when your just floating away the hoursKisses and Love to all his fans.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Friday, March 21, 2008
Thursday, March 20, 2008
On March 17th, the Relief Society celebrates its 166th birthday, making it one of the world’s oldest women’s organizations. It is also the world’s largest women’s organization, with five and a half million sisters in 170 countries.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
As a side note...Thanks to Tiffany my Sis for driving all the way to town from Cheeney to play for me last weekend! It was a SUPER hard arrangement and you did an amazing job. The Song was great and people seemed to like it. I decided last min. to sing the Spanish part and I am so glad I did. W/ the exception of one person asking me if it was Hebrew (was my Spanish so unrecognizable?)I think I pulled it off...So 2 songs down & 1 to go for March. I also got released from Young Women’s and I am now the Ward Choir Director. Funny huh? I think so!!! I can't read music, I can barley lead and I have basically no idea what I am doing.. The only thing I have going for me other then the fact that I can sing is, apparently someone thought I could do it or I wouldn't have gotten the call...Any suggestions would be welcome and any snide comments I can live w/o :) Until Next time have a great one people.
Monday, March 17, 2008
I have never denied that I am a procrastinator. In fact I feel I work best under pressure sometimes so why bother. Well I am so far ahead of the game this year I just don't know what to do with myself. Here it is March and we already have Rieken's Halloween costume ready! I know can you believe it? I have to admit, I really had nothing to do with the conception of this particular choice. All in all though I think we have a winner. So now for your viewing pleasure....
It's amazing how hard a person can laugh and still keep their eyes open so they won't miss any of the action. It's is also amazing what a 2 year can do with a pair of maternity nylons to generate this very response.I wish I would have gotten a video clip because it was just so funny watching him try to point to things and bend over. The best was the way he looked from the back though. Oh my word it was HALARIOUS!!! I don't know maybe you had to be there ;)
Happy St. Patrick’s Day! I hope our little leprechaun sausage put a smile on your face too.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
We get there and they check him in and ask all the usual questions and hook him up to an o2 monitor. His level was 89. Not horrible but not good either. He had actually gotten a lot better on the way over (maybe the cold air?) and hadn't coughed since we took him out of his room. The nurse was dead set it was Croup. I was like ah, no he hasn't had any of (see list above) and she was like well it just comes out of no where and this is what happens, so it's most likely the croup. Ok I don’t agree but, I’m no doctor (otherwise we would have stayed at home) so, we take a seat and they assure us he will go back ASAP for treatment. We sat there for 2 + hours!! Kippi slept Kelten asked every 2 min. how much longer and Rieken just got better and better. Finally they put us into a room and then we waited for another 30-45 min, to see the doctor! As we were waiting Karl and debated on weather or not we should just leave. So we flagged down a nurse and asked her what they could even do for him now that he is showing no symptoms. She said they would probably get him a prescription just in case it happened again and so, we stayed... While we waited the kids had fun doing the vision test and eating popsicles provided by a kind nurse. By the time the Doctor made his way to us Rieken was back to normal with the exception of a slightly clear runny nose (probably from being out in the cold at midnight!). The Doctor took one look at him and said hmm I don’t know what it could have been maybe he has Croup but I don’t see any signs of it now.(what is with them hanging on to the whole croup thing!). . I guess you should give him Tylenol if he gets a fever and maybe some saline for that runny nose he says. Are you kidding me! No concern or even discussion on how this may have been an asthma attack or an allergic reaction no nothing! I know when to give my kid Tylenol and this runny nose was not even an issue until we took him out in the cold to come to the hospital for his BREATHING!!! What could we do? Sit there and argue with him when as far as he can tell Rieken is doing just fine... So we loaded everyone up and headed home. By the time all was said and done the kids were back in bed by 3:30 am and Rieken was in bed with us just in case…Today I am tiered and cranky and I just can’t stop thinking to myself…. Those were some pretty dang pricy popsicles!
Friday, March 14, 2008
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Oh and as an update from yesterdays post. We have changed our minds and our going to go w/ the 13th of June for the C-Section because Karl has finals the 9th -12th. We would really like him to be able to enjoy the first week of his son's life and not just be stressed about mommy in the hospital a new baby and finals... That’s what we get for picking the dated w/o consulting the all important calendar!
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
~~ The next wonderful thing to happen this week. I had my doctors apt. here's the run down. I gained some weight, the baby has a heartbeat, and my belly is measuring large not to mention, the time has come for my sugar test... I can honestly say this is one of those things I hate during pregnancy. I can hardly keep the drink down and I hate that I have to fast. I can go hours w/o eating a thing and not notice but, when I HAVE to do it I can't think about anything other then eating and it's torture! Lucky for me I won't have to drink the drink I get to eat jelly beans instead yeah! I'm am also interested to see if I will do the "typical thing" and be gestational per usual or not per this very unusual pregnancy. My doctor also gave me options for the day to schedule my c-section. I know super early in my opinion. But hey, I'm not against being prepared it's just a slightly foreign concept to me. So, I think we have picked June 6th but I will keep you posted in case we change our mind. It seems weird to actually put a date on the arrival of a baby we haven’t even named yet. Oh and I also got scheduled for our 4-D ultrasound!!! I am so excited I love those. The kids do to. I think it makes it more real to them. So that’s it for the Dr. Visit.
I am singing an arrangement w/o the Spanish so it will be a little shorter then that but it is still beautiful! I really hope I can do this justice. It is one of the most touching songs about the Sacrifice our Savior made for us. I still have a hard time not crying when I listen to it.
~~~The last thing of any notice to happen so far this week... I ran out of gas! I have never run out of gas before. NEVER! I was on my way to pick Kippi up from Pre-school when the gas light went on. I thought oh I should have enough to get me there and then stop on the way home right?. Yeah-NO I made within a couple of blocks from the preschool (LUCKY ME!) The kicker.. I hadn't bothered to put shoes on Rieken because he wasn't supposed to be getting out of the car. Yeah well I carried him the whole way except about 10 feet and then his little piggy’s got cold. I owe a HUGE thanks to Mrs.Kristen for taking me to the gas station to get more petrol for our gas guzzling Beast of a car. Thanks so much I would have been screwed w/o ya!! I really do owe you. Maybe a little homemade bread & jam will make it up to ya?
Well that's it for the week so far. So until next time... Wish me luck and the next time you see Rieken don't forget to tell him what a good Barber he is:) Happy Wednesday people.
Sunday, March 9, 2008
1. My eyelashes... They are longish and they never gain weight!
2. My Sense of humor.
3. My voice. I love to sing and I love that my kids love to hear me sing no matter what!
4. My ability to sleep through anything and/or anywhere when I need to. My ability to wake up at the smallest thing when I need to... (I swear I am out of bed in a flash at the slightest gag or barfing sound!)
5. My family. I know this isn't technically me but it wouldn't be the same w/o me and I love it so, to me that counts.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
I am a horrible procrastinator... This usually means a lot of unnecessary stress, worry and a half done job in the end. This problem pertains to almost all areas of my life. However, there are a few things that I manage to stay focused on so this plight doesn’t touch them. One of those things is singing. I am a true believer in being prepared when performing. If someone cares enough to ask me to do this I feel obligated not to let them down.(why I can't have this mentality about everything beats me!) Well I got asked to sing in another ward for their Relief Society Birthday dinner a little over two weeks ago. I was sick at the time but thought I would be over it with plenty of time to prepare. Well, guess what? The Dinner was Last night and I almost didn't make it and this is why.....
Monday the week of rolls around & I kind of start to worry because, I still sound like I have a bad cold. By Tuesday I sounded better but not totally and on Wednesday it was like I was cured! This was good and bad in my opinion. I need to mention that due to my head cold and sinus infection over the last two weeks I never even bothered to look at the song. So this is bad because, now I am officially better and I have no acceptable excuse to beg off and good because then I don't have to be a Jerk and beg off. To top it off I find out the person whom they have told me was accompanying me was never told that. So, not only am I unprepared but she would be too (through no fault of her own). She was Super sweet about it and said she would be happy to but, there was no time to get together before hand because her schedule was packed... So here I am Wednesday night Freaking out about a song I have to sing in two days that I have Never bothered to look at and even if I had I can't read notes and, I have no pianist to practice with to boot!!! Needless to say I didn't sleep well that night. At about 5:30AM Thursday it occurs to me I know someone who plays Very well and may be able to help... I lay there watching the clock waiting until a respectable time to call her. At 7:30 I couldn't wait any longer so I called her and she was more then happy to help! Hallelujah!! We made arrangements to get together and practice. What followed were pure patience on her part a lot of laughter and some really horrible singing on my part!! In the end She ended up playing for me (thank you so much Marilyn!) and it all worked out fine. I have to say I could have lived with out the stress stomach ache and the major case of nerves that hit me out of no where! All in all though it was a great lesson learned. I just wanted to say Thanks a trillion to this gal for helping me through a ticking time bomb! You were amazing and you even sacrificed your Friday night to help me out not to mention, the time spent practicing and having to listen to me stumble through or talk NON STOP!! You are amazing and I couldn't’t have pulled it off with out ya! So, from the tips of my stubby toes to the bottom of my chineck I Thank you .
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Yesterday was our second appointment with the specialist. I know I didn't update after my last visit but hey who wants to hear every detail of my life and frankly I wasn't in the mood to share them all at the time. Sorry.
The Dr. was very nice and optimistic and said they most likely aren't getting the right angle and that’s probably why they can't see it. So back we go in six weeks to make sure he really does have all the parts he needs in his little heart. Now I'm sure you all have lots of questions but let me just say. I don't know what will happen if he winds up w/o the ventricle. I didn't even ask...